Feel My Pain

You say this and that...you say that you love me.  Love is not suppose to hurt like this.  I dont think we could ever be again...I dont trust you to change what you say you will change.  Now that I have walked out your life, you can now expierence the hurt I felt when you left me all alone for six months and did what you did...but oh I forgot my feelings dont count.  Its okay..cuz now you feel my pain...it hurts like hell, huh?  The many of nights I have cried about you..the many of nights I have prayed to God to make this work.  Impossible.  Though I miss you like crazy, I cant bring myself to even look at you.  You walked out on me, and this time I said to myself, if you walked out....there would be no coming back.  Not unless, God sees fit to bring you back into my life....space is needed right now and I would appreciate if you would respect that.  I respect the fact that you wont be helping me..but please let me find myself and figure out what I want.  Now do you feel my pain?

Love

I know life will take us through trials and tribulations, but at some point you have to choose to stay or leave a bad situation.  Love is not about being mistreated.  Love is a very strong word and if you claim you love somebody then youn would not treat them any kind of way.  In my whole 32 years, I've never been through what I have been through the last 8 years.  I am physically, mentally and emotionally drained.  All I know is the person who loves me when no one else will is Jesus Christ.  From now on, I'm making it my top priority to put Him first.  I will never love anyone the way I love Him.