Feel My Pain

You say this and that...you say that you love me.  Love is not suppose to hurt like this.  I dont think we could ever be again...I dont trust you to change what you say you will change.  Now that I have walked out your life, you can now expierence the hurt I felt when you left me all alone for six months and did what you did...but oh I forgot my feelings dont count.  Its okay..cuz now you feel my pain...it hurts like hell, huh?  The many of nights I have cried about you..the many of nights I have prayed to God to make this work.  Impossible.  Though I miss you like crazy, I cant bring myself to even look at you.  You walked out on me, and this time I said to myself, if you walked out....there would be no coming back.  Not unless, God sees fit to bring you back into my life....space is needed right now and I would appreciate if you would respect that.  I respect the fact that you wont be helping me..but please let me find myself and figure out what I want.  Now do you feel my pain?

Love

I know life will take us through trials and tribulations, but at some point you have to choose to stay or leave a bad situation.  Love is not about being mistreated.  Love is a very strong word and if you claim you love somebody then youn would not treat them any kind of way.  In my whole 32 years, I've never been through what I have been through the last 8 years.  I am physically, mentally and emotionally drained.  All I know is the person who loves me when no one else will is Jesus Christ.  From now on, I'm making it my top priority to put Him first.  I will never love anyone the way I love Him. 

God's Side

This is my first blog and I am so glad I have God in my life.  Life has a way of knocking us so far down that we will literally think that we cannot go on...but just hold on because God has you.  It's not over til he says it overs.  He will take us through trials to get us to where He wants us to be.  When He calls it is best to heed to his calling because eventually He will reel you in.  So...decide if you want to be on God's side.  I personally choose to be on His side.